Published in The Hindu Open Page
A
lesson in signing off in style without ado
Consider this,
all you chronic over-achievers, anxious to leave behind lasting legacies and
cannot let go THOMAS PAUL
06-Aug-2017 ... A lesson in signing off in style without ado ...... August 06, 2017 12:22 am | Updated 12:22 am IST
The ache for glory
I discover a new route for my morning walk in
the shady lanes of Electronics City in Bengaluru. I’m the only one walking at 7
a.m., a quiet and cool hour, well before the thundering herds of the IT
workforce stampede past one’s eardrums.
I pass by a business school campus in the
15th minute of my walk. At this point, I’m warmed up and I start jogging. Wrong
move. A pack of three or four dogs led by an aged, limping and shaggy
biscuit-coloured mongrel (who I shall call Biscuit) begin barking at my sudden
shift in pace, and come circling around me. I must have triggered some dog
instinct in them.
So I slow down and (remembering the advice
dispensed by Animal Planet and Reader’s Digest ) avoid eye contact with the excited lot, and make
it through the next 100 yards without incident. The dogs see me off with some
desultory barking.
This happens again on random days whenever I
pass by the B-school. The pack of dogs is always around this area. Biscuit
always leads the barking routine, tirelessly, though he has to limp a lot while
coming around. The B-school guards by now begin to enjoy this familiar drama
and begin to appreciate Biscuit’s dedication.
A couple of weeks later, I find Biscuit
stationed alone in front of the B-school gate. His gang seems to have wandered
off elsewhere at the present time. Biscuit doesn’t have the back-up force to
harass me. He sits on his haunches and pretends not to recognise me. He’s quite
the diplomat, now.
So I deliberately walk close past his nose so
he can get my scent and get used to it. I see that he wags his tail a bit. Oh,
great, I think. We are friends now.
Eventually I find that the security guards at
the B-school gate seem to have adopted Biscuit, outsourcing him as a live alarm
system, and have started feeding him. He’s now a dog with a job. So all through
the months that follow, Biscuit parks himself right in front of the gate, like
an old sentry, watchful, though I see that he is looking out only for other
visiting dogs intruding on his turf. He lets off a sporadic bark now and then
to let everyone know he is on the job.
As the days pass, I understand first-hand the
concept of “dog years”. It’s almost two years now since Biscuit had found his
calling as a gatekeeper, but it seems he is slacking off a little day by day.
He doesn’t squat on his haunches in the alert position like the Syndicate Bank
mascot. Whenever I go past the area on some other errand, I find Biscuit curled
up on his side, sleeping. He is ageing in scary multiples of seven dog-years to
my single year. His vision is failing, and so is his sense of smell.
Going downhill
One day I find he is having a senior moment
when he doesn’t recognise me, and barks confusedly at me. I know he is going
downhill rapidly.
I had to be out of town for a month. When I
get back on my morning walk, I find Biscuit is absent at his post, and I ask
the B-school guard about it.
He sighs and makes a sign of something gone
forever, as though a dog’s death were nothing more than the dry wind that stirs
the leaves. He is appreciative, too, that Biscuit has someone asking after him.
Biscuit is gone, just like that, and I’m sure he didn’t brood about the end,
being the practical animal that a dog is. No long-drawn goodbye, no
heart-rending sayonara or khuda hafiz . Altogether different from us, wannabe immortals.
One cannot but resist the dog-man comparison.
Unlike Biscuit, we, at the apex of animal kingdom, don’t like to sign off
without fanfare. The old-timers among us, corporate warriors at heart, chronic
overachievers, anxious to leave behind lasting legacies, cannot let go and
serenely walk into the sunset. We fret against the dying of our light. The ache
for glory never lets go of us. In this, we find fulfilment. In this, we suffer
anguish, too. The two go hand in hand.

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